If you ask how I am…

…then I won’t say inspired.*

So, it’s been a month since my last endocrinologist appointment, and I was so gung-ho about keeping up with my exercise, eating better and using all the great technology that I have…all with the hopes of getting my A1C below 7%.

WHAT HAPPENED?

I feel so unmotivated right now. I was doing pretty well until we went on our trip over the holidays. I don’t know if it was the fact that my BG was out of sorts and my CGM was waking me up constantly during the night, but I haven’t put my CGM on for almost 3 weeks now. And since I’m not wearing it, I’m not testing my BG as often as I should…so that means (if I keep on this trajectory) my A1C will most likely be higher than it should be. (I certainly haven’t had very many lows lately).

Grrrrrrrrrr…I get so mad at myself sometimes. It doesn’t take rocket science to know what you’re *supposed* to do.

<I’m going to pause now and get my CGM started>

There, that didn’t take very long…probably 3 minutes at most. Did I mention that I get so mad at myself sometimes?

I guess this is diabetes fatigue. I admire diabetics who can be so rigorous with the management of their condition for years and years. I go through stages. When I was pregnant with my 2 children, I was almost perfect. Lately, not so much.

Sometimes I just get so tired of thinking about every single thing I eat or drink, how exercise is going to make me feel, whether that tingling in my left arm is carpal tunnel or something else…after 30+ years of this, it does get old.  I call these episodes my “rebellious” times.

I know…WAH. WAH. WAH.

Sorry for being a downer, but it’s how I’m feeling right now, at least about how I’m handling my T1D.

I’m curious – how do you (or your diabetic loved ones) stay motivated? I’m very interested in learning some new strategies that may help me get through these rebellious times better.

Anyway, if nothing else, at least writing this blog post guilted me into getting my CGM going again. (smile)

*For those of you who know me, that’s a play on one of my favorite Elton John/Bernie Taupin lines (“If you ask how I am, then I’ll just say inspired”).